YOU'RE MINE, I'M YOURS

You are the star in the night
You are my guiding light
I am the sun that gives you smile
I will walk with you in every mile
From this moment, we are one. . .

Baby I love you, every night and every day
Baby I need you, no matter what people say
I want to spend my whole life, it's true...living with you.

Baby I want you, just come what may
Baby I cherish you even there's a price to pay
I want to hold you, and kiss you
That's all I want to do. . .
You're mine, I'm yours forever.

I am your wish upon a star
You are my dream, yes you are
I'm the knight in shining armor
Only it's you I adore
From this moment, we are one. . .

For always and forever, you and me together
Wherever, whenever, love is in the air. . .

**This is a copy of the song Sherwin composed & sang to me when he proposed.**

A New Beginning

As I lie here, still, unmoving
my thoughts drift to an earlier time

Our love was new, and with every breath
We spoke each other’s name.

We always rushed home, longing for the touch
The touch of a lover’s embrace and a lovers kiss

All we did was for each other, but now
The motions have taken control

It isn't as it was, the sad truth
The flame that was so bright

I long for those days, of love
Days of dedication and joy

Now they are in the past, reality set in
It couldn't last forever, those feelings

But there is hope, a bright anew
But there must be a sacrifice

We must give it to Him, our God
Only he can bring us back to the beginning. . .

**I dunno when we started again. But we're trying to work things out. I'm still hurt but I know one day I can love him just like before or even much more. It's up to Him. I'm still praying and hoping for the best.**

I Hate

I hate the way you look at me
I hate the way you make me see
for just how stupid I can be
the times when you're around with me
I hate the way you stand
I wish I could just understand
why we build castles in the sand

I hate the way you said goodbye
I hate it when you make me cry
I hate it when you give a sigh
I hate it when I know you lie

My presence you now often ignore
I wonder what this love is for
I even hate the way you snore
You snore just like a raging boar

I hate you 'cause you didn't stay
I hate you 'cause you didn't say
that you will love me all the way
to truly hate you, I wish I may

I miss the way you smile at me
I know that's stupidity
what's worse, I miss to be with you
and worst because I know its true

some things I hate, some things I miss
some things I chose to reminisce
some things I hate because of you
I hate myself of loving you...

I Hate U!

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close¦
not even a little bit¦
not even at all.

-From the movie "10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU"

I'm sick of feeling this way
I hate this overwhelming feeling of pain
And I hate the fact that I feel this way
Because you used my love in vain

Look what you've done to me
Look what I've become
You just sat there this whole time
Watching me slowly coming undone
You know, I really thought you loved me
But I guess that was nothing but a big lie
You said you'd be here till the end
But in the end, you left me here to die

I spent so many nights crying myself to sleep
I had no one to talk to
I felt like I was worthless
Like I was nothing without you

But I'm sick of being this way
And I know I'm better than this
But regardless of everything
For some reason, you're still the one I always miss

I really don't get it
You've broken my heart
Yet I still love you with every broken piece of it
Even though I'm still falling apart

All my feelings for you
That I keep inside
Never really go away
Because deep down is where they reside. . .

Happy Fiesta!

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by my brother Joel Jerrold S. Tan

Where Are My Girls At?

This one is for the girl you can take home to mom, but won't because its easier to be around with a whore than work on a relationship

This is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with.

This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over "her", he's just not looking to be tied down.

This is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone.

This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too selfish to have cared in the first place.

This is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen him from across the room leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly to that girl he's with just to be an "old friend".

This is for the girls who never told them it was their baby because of the fear that it would tear them apart even more - for the girls who have to live every day with the pain of losing that baby whether she chose to or not.

This is for the nights his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had.

This is for the night you realized that it couldn't happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after falling to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment & this is for realizing that when you choose friends, you hardly choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep.

This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have settled for what he was giving because at least he was giving something.

This is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted.

This is for the hugs you've received from your girlfriends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and that you are truly worthy of a great guy.

This is for the regret you’ve felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that at night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow.

It's sad and I'm sorry to say but this is soo true.. *sigh*

What Happened?

Time flows along, and sometimes the way gets confusing. I know I've often asked this question of myself. . .

Sun-warmed hay and picture clouds,
Bumblebees and rain;
What happened to those lazy days,
Those whistles of a train?

Children squealed in pink-delight
While carousels spun ‘round;
What happened to those carefree days,
Those picnics on the ground?

Fireworks on velvet skies,
Firefly-filled jars;
What happened to those brilliant days,
Those flashing shooting stars?

Twinkling trees and sparkling clothes,
Turkey legs and spice;
What happened to those holidays,
Those people who were nice?

Orange-blossomed wedding vows,
Tear-streaked, dull decree;
What happened to those happy days,
Those days of you and me?

**Yesterday been reading my diary, emails... recalling what has been. Today it has ended. Oh the happy days are gone...**

Confused?

My knees start to shake
When you're in sight
My mind is filled with wonder
My heart with fright.

When will this feeling stop?
When did it start?
How can I listen to my mind,
without breaking my heart?

I'm so confused
What should I do?
I can't think of anything
Except you.

Should I ignore you,
or just give it time?
I can't think straight,
my heart controls my mind.

**Sometimes its hard being in a relationship where you feel its gone dry...Hayy, don't let confusion keep us apart...**

Why did you...

This is the copy of a poem that I have emailed to him... juz wanna share... And this is what I'm feeling these past few weeks...


What am I fighting for
I don't really understand
You're not there anymore
To simply hold my hand

Without you around
I have lost so much
So much strength you gave
With simply a soft touch

I kept looking at my phone
But it just doesn't ring
Not even a buzz
A text it doesn't bring

You're always too busy
And no longer had time
To stop and say hello
Seconds it would only be nine

You have your own life
I guess I'm just in the way
And I'm not even permitted
To expect hearing from you everyday

I don't have the energy
I feel completely broken
My eyes are welling up
Soon they'll be soaking

I need you so much
I can't begin to explain
But I'm hurting so much
Why am I bearing this pain

I would wait a lifetime
For a moment with you
But not knowing when I'll see you
Tears me up in two

I don't want to hurt you
Or even cause you any pain
But it definitely hurts me
For you always think I complain

I'm so very confused
What is really meant to be
Why did this happen
Why did you fall in love with me. . .