A New Beginning

As I lie here, still, unmoving
my thoughts drift to an earlier time

Our love was new, and with every breath
We spoke each other’s name.

We always rushed home, longing for the touch
The touch of a lover’s embrace and a lovers kiss

All we did was for each other, but now
The motions have taken control

It isn't as it was, the sad truth
The flame that was so bright

I long for those days, of love
Days of dedication and joy

Now they are in the past, reality set in
It couldn't last forever, those feelings

But there is hope, a bright anew
But there must be a sacrifice

We must give it to Him, our God
Only he can bring us back to the beginning. . .

**I dunno when we started again. But we're trying to work things out. I'm still hurt but I know one day I can love him just like before or even much more. It's up to Him. I'm still praying and hoping for the best.**

I Hate

I hate the way you look at me
I hate the way you make me see
for just how stupid I can be
the times when you're around with me
I hate the way you stand
I wish I could just understand
why we build castles in the sand

I hate the way you said goodbye
I hate it when you make me cry
I hate it when you give a sigh
I hate it when I know you lie

My presence you now often ignore
I wonder what this love is for
I even hate the way you snore
You snore just like a raging boar

I hate you 'cause you didn't stay
I hate you 'cause you didn't say
that you will love me all the way
to truly hate you, I wish I may

I miss the way you smile at me
I know that's stupidity
what's worse, I miss to be with you
and worst because I know its true

some things I hate, some things I miss
some things I chose to reminisce
some things I hate because of you
I hate myself of loving you...

I Hate U!

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close¦
not even a little bit¦
not even at all.

-From the movie "10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU"

I'm sick of feeling this way
I hate this overwhelming feeling of pain
And I hate the fact that I feel this way
Because you used my love in vain

Look what you've done to me
Look what I've become
You just sat there this whole time
Watching me slowly coming undone
You know, I really thought you loved me
But I guess that was nothing but a big lie
You said you'd be here till the end
But in the end, you left me here to die

I spent so many nights crying myself to sleep
I had no one to talk to
I felt like I was worthless
Like I was nothing without you

But I'm sick of being this way
And I know I'm better than this
But regardless of everything
For some reason, you're still the one I always miss

I really don't get it
You've broken my heart
Yet I still love you with every broken piece of it
Even though I'm still falling apart

All my feelings for you
That I keep inside
Never really go away
Because deep down is where they reside. . .